Week 34

Well, there is no denying that the last couple of weeks have been difficult.  Following the sudden death of my friend which I have already shared with you, exactly a week later we lost, after a very quick illness and diagnosis, a very special member of our family. A beautiful uncle.  Two funeral services on two consecutive Wednesdays and the hardest part of it all was seeing all those that I love so much in pain and tears.  Cancer.  Bloody cancer.

I wish I was the type of person to drop half of my bodyweight in stressful and upsetting situations but actually I am the complete opposite.  I decided to book two weeks ‘holiday’ time with my Slimming World Consultant in a bid to try and hold on to a bit of control.  The last thing I needed was to stand on the scales and see a weight gain - it wouldn’t have taken much for me to shove the scan bran where the sun don’t shine.

So, yesterday morning (as scheduled) I bit the bullet and I returned to class. 2.5lbs on.  A minor miracle if you ask me considering I nearly drowned on more than one occasion in a bath of Shiraz and mini cheddars.

Of course I am really disappointed. The first weigh in after Pete died and I put on 3lb and now I have another gain of 2.5lbs.  I was so close to the 3 stone weight loss marker and now I am closer to 2.5 stones.

You know something? When I started my weight loss journey I never viewed it as one of those perfect race scenarios where I could weather all storms and still lose weight at a rate of 2lbs a week and write the perfect diet book, I just wanted to share my real ups and downs and have a bit of fun along the way with a bucket list.  So, as much as I have taken a few steps backwards and believe me it is a bitter pill to swallow, this is real life.  It is time to stop, change gear and get moving forwards again.

Next week, my little chicka dees,  is time to visit the bucket list again and get some more positivity and fun back in the mix. For now though, this is really  going to hurt as I am under the half-way point again but so be it, the deed is done……thirty three and a half a pound of fat lost..... thirty six and a half a pound and counting. Sx